About Me.

One only remembers the toll of the division bell ringing when the world goes quiet. It is so loud I can hear it over the top of the blood ringing in my ears Having a dissociative disorder feels like a stranger has keys to your home, They come in and…

Had already asked a friend who is good at these things When is daylight savings? She told me Like all things to do with time, it slipped…

Poetry — Had already asked a friend who is good at these things When is daylight savings? She told me Like all things to do with time, it slipped away I think into the river that is at the end of my street Heavily polluted with thoughts, dreams, memories, and reflections And especially time The bass drum is banged…

I met Chris not long after I arrived in Napier, Hawkes Bay. An art deco city on the east coast of New Zealand. He sat across from me in a Narcotics Anonymous meeting. I was 23 years old and had run away from Nelson. I was escaping my husband who…

I am adopted. My birth sister recently posted a photo of her birth father. The photo she posted about was shown on the exact day of the anniversary of his death, as seen in the headstone photo taken from the cemetery. I took a screenshot of the photo, then made…

Sometime in 1987, I washed up in Nelson, a sunny city at the top of the South Island of New Zealand. I found myself in a caravan in a motor camp. The last thing I had remembered was being in Christchurch, working as a sex worker and stripper for a…

The last few days I made a couple of FaceBook posts. One was about a leaky tap and the other was about my therapy zoom sessions and how my therapists’ internet crashed. We are having therapy this way as she is an anti-vaxxer. …

I live with Dissociative Identity Disorder. We wrote this a couple of years ago. It is when, my Parts/Alters as they are called, needed to have a meeting and all communicate with each other and try and help each other. …

Friendships have been on my mind a lot lately. It feels like the last couple of years of living under Covid-19 conditions has changed the dynamics of everything, especially friendships. It feels like some unspoken rules have changed. We all have the understanding of the layered circles of friends, meaning…